Happy 2016, friends.
This new year is certainly a season of change in many areas of my life. It’s the end of our first semester at MHS, the beginning of a new semester of grad school, and so much more. All of this is exciting and overwhelming in a great way.
I ended 2015 feeling haggard and overrun. I can’t remember a season in which I’ve ever felt so tired. So burnt out. So overwhelmed. In the weeks leading up to the holiday, I left work everyday feeling defeated, feeling like a bad teacher. This wasn’t just the pre-holiday blues; my heart was heavy and my body was weary. Something needed to change.
At the end of each year, our pastor encourages us to choose a word that we are believing God for in the year ahead. There were so many words swimming in my head, but when it came time to solidify my word, renew is what stuck.
I need to renew my passion and my purpose. I need to focus less on me, and more on the reason I became a teacher in the first place: the students. I need to focus less on accomplishing the to-do list and more on the relationships I can build around me. This mid-year slump brought me to a place of complaining and bitterness– and those feelings keep me from being my best self.
This weekend, my friend Bethany shared a Scripture with our campus volunteers that I have known since I was a young girl that struck a new chord with me, particularly since my word was in the passage.
Create in me a pure heart, O God and renew a steadfast spirit in me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me. -Psalm 51:10, 12
I want to keep this perspective as we transition into the new semester and new year. I want to be open and to continually ask God to renew a steadfast spirit in me, in all areas of my life, so that I can serve Him best.
I’m praying that 2016 will be a year of renewal. I would love it if you’d join me!