Happy New Year’s Eve, friends. I come to this day with a mending heart, a quiet spirit, and a sigh of relief. Most of you know that 2016 has been a heartbreaking year for the Halls, and I don’t say that lightly. We’ve spent the past few months doing the near-impossible task of taping our hearts back together and realizing there is no way to make sense of it all– there is only the opportunity to move forward, ever-so-slowly, into a new way of looking at the world and loving those around us. We come to the end of 2016 holding each other closer, praising Jesus with tear-stained cheeks and shaking, but still-lifted hands. We survived, and we owe it all to Jesus and those He so carefully surrounded us with in this season.
Many have asked that I post the words I shared at Tori’s memorial in September. I’m so grateful for the opportunity the McLean family gave me to share about my dearest friend. I hope you are able to get a glimpse of her heart and love for others.
In the past few weeks, I’ve been thinking back on this second year of marriage. Man, what a year it’s been.
Yesterday we got some unexpected news from a friend that brought me to my knees.
I have experienced loss and frustration and pain, but never this close, this invasive. And let me tell you: the enemy picked the wrong people to mess with. We’re going to battle and he won’t win this one. We won’t give him the satisfaction.
I’ve felt it coming on for a while. The exhaustion. The burnout. The sinking, drowning feeling I can’t quite escape. I come up for gulps of air, gasping for breath. I know these patterns aren’t good for me. I know I need to reset, let go, set things aside. Continue reading “Sinking Deep”
Happy 2016, friends.
This new year is certainly a season of change in many areas of my life. It’s the end of our first semester at MHS, the beginning of a new semester of grad school, and so much more. All of this is exciting and overwhelming in a great way.
It is 12:05 in the morning on August 8, 2015. It is officially the 365th day of our marriage. Tomorrow will be our one year anniversary. Continue reading “Day 365.”